The glass is neither half empty nor half full.
It's just a glass with some shit in it.
Nothing more....nothing less.
Sometimes shit just is what the fuck it is.
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Home of the Porchies, the Sluts, those afflicted with Smaw Poese, the lonely bitter Hags, the Homie Ho's, the ubiquitous and somewhat cantankerous Unicorn, and anyone else who feels like an outcast from time to time.
Weaver Girl said:
At our backs the castle door,
others feel free to ignore
this extension of extended metaphor
On the porch swings where we sit,
quick of tongue and fleet of wit
games and poems to submit
Open books in open hands,
poetry from other lands,
lyrics from our favorite bands
A telling word, a single note,
and meaning in a random quote:
significance of what we wrote
Different cultures and aesthetic,
for this we're not apologetic!
We are just beyond poetic!
Killers, X Files, Broken Bride
never are these words denied,
here they often all collide
from the early light of dawn,
as we used to, still wait on
the random poetry anons
Jack White, movies, TBS,
have you wisdom to profess?
Here, the answer's always "Yes"
Here we play, by words transfixed,
Haiku and pop culture mixed,
nothing broken, nothing fixed
Here is truth and here's creation
joy and horror, pain, elation,
in a story, small salvation
And here is laughter, here we're free
to be whatever we may be
and though others may disagree,
we greet the castle, greet its lord
and do so of our own accord
and shun the frothing, rabid horde
Be it known I'd so much rather
read my friends and all their "blather,"
on the porch here, where we gather.
others feel free to ignore
this extension of extended metaphor
On the porch swings where we sit,
quick of tongue and fleet of wit
games and poems to submit
Open books in open hands,
poetry from other lands,
lyrics from our favorite bands
A telling word, a single note,
and meaning in a random quote:
significance of what we wrote
Different cultures and aesthetic,
for this we're not apologetic!
We are just beyond poetic!
Killers, X Files, Broken Bride
never are these words denied,
here they often all collide
from the early light of dawn,
as we used to, still wait on
the random poetry anons
Jack White, movies, TBS,
have you wisdom to profess?
Here, the answer's always "Yes"
Here we play, by words transfixed,
Haiku and pop culture mixed,
nothing broken, nothing fixed
Here is truth and here's creation
joy and horror, pain, elation,
in a story, small salvation
And here is laughter, here we're free
to be whatever we may be
and though others may disagree,
we greet the castle, greet its lord
and do so of our own accord
and shun the frothing, rabid horde
Be it known I'd so much rather
read my friends and all their "blather,"
on the porch here, where we gather.
Go With The Flow
This River Is Wild
Leaves are falling down
On the beautiful ground
I heard a story from the man in red
He said the leaves are falling down
Such a beautiful sound so I think you
Son, I think you better go ahead
But you always hold your head up high
Cause it's a long, long, long way down
This town was meant for passing through
But it ain't nothing new
Now go and show them
That the world stayed round
But it's a long, long, long way down
You better run for the hills before they burn
Listen to the sound of the world
And watch it turn
I just want to show you what I know
And catch you when the current lets you go
Or should I just get along with myself
I never did get along with everybody else
I've been trying hard to do what's right
But you know I could stay here all night
And watch the clouds fall from the sky
This river is wild
This river is wild
The Killers
Leaves are falling down
On the beautiful ground
I heard a story from the man in red
He said the leaves are falling down
Such a beautiful sound so I think you
Son, I think you better go ahead
But you always hold your head up high
Cause it's a long, long, long way down
This town was meant for passing through
But it ain't nothing new
Now go and show them
That the world stayed round
But it's a long, long, long way down
You better run for the hills before they burn
Listen to the sound of the world
And watch it turn
I just want to show you what I know
And catch you when the current lets you go
Or should I just get along with myself
I never did get along with everybody else
I've been trying hard to do what's right
But you know I could stay here all night
And watch the clouds fall from the sky
This river is wild
This river is wild
The Killers
The Switch & The Spur
any poor souls
who trespass against us
Whether it be beast or man
Will suffer the bite
or be stung dead on sight
By those who inhabit this land
For theirs is the power
And this is their kingdom
as sure as the sun does burn
So enter this path
but heed these four words...
......you shall never return.
The Raconteurs
who trespass against us
Whether it be beast or man
Will suffer the bite
or be stung dead on sight
By those who inhabit this land
For theirs is the power
And this is their kingdom
as sure as the sun does burn
So enter this path
but heed these four words...
......you shall never return.
The Raconteurs
200 comments:
Yay!!
Sorry, had to. And now I'm switching off the damn computer!
I'll follow you anywhere!
Yay, I have company.
Sdock?
Hey, first of all!
And could you put the old DM post back up so I could see what went down?
Hey everybody!
Now where did everyone else go?
errrrrrrrrrr
Alls you got to do is click on older posts at the bottom of this post.
Hey to you too.
Is everything okay here?
Is it safe for me to even return?
Or should I just stay away for a bit?
Hello everyone, how are you?
Sorry I've been quiet but I really didn't know what to say with all the shit that has gone down.
sdock, I got no email either sweetie.
Hey Missy, How did today go?
Hey I'm sorry if I upset anyone earlier. I just get upset when I feel like someone is waiting for us to crash and burn.
I'll be quiet.
I don't think you've upset anyone, Elena.
Certainly not me....don't stay quiet!
Okay, I'm not going to be here for a few days.
I'm trying my best here, and it's not working.
I love you all, and I'll come back when I feel the time is right for me.
You know where to find me :)
See you all around town.
Hi everyone,
Miss T - how did it go today?
Hi DG, it went OK. I have a couple of appointments to go back and sign up properly. I have let some CV's and I have some phone numbers. We shall see.
Whoa Mustard, where are you going?
Stay.
Elena, you didn't upset me.
GS, It went OK thanks.
Mustard, please don't leave. If you feel you have to, please come back in a couple of days. I know how it feels to need a break from here.
MissT,
I wuv you! I am so happy to see you today.
Mustard,
Do what you have to do. You are asking someone who has no fucking clue what you are talking about.
I love ya...take it for what it's worth.
Elena and Mustard,
Nobody needs to apologise for anything, or leave. I've been in this situation myself and I greatly appreciated it when Miss T talked me through it. We're all here for each other.
*Sigh*
Does anyone have any of those anonymous posts from before?
Hey I'm sorry if I upset anyone earlier. I just get upset when I feel like someone is waiting for us to crash and burn.
I may be evil, although I'm getting less evil by the moment, but I don't want to see you crash and burn either.
I wuv you too sdock.
I wuv mustard too and I'm gonna miss her. come back soon please.
Oh shit, what is going on?
Mustard: do what you feel you need to, but come back soon,eh?
That's great news indeed, MissT!
Click on Older Post to read Anonymous posts from before
Thanks DG, MissT and Not so evil.
I really do try to be quiet when I get pissed off but sometimes it's so hard.
Mayo's is important to me. All of you are important to me. Maybe it's the "Mom protect mode" that kicks in.
Mustard, I hate for you to leave even for a short time. I still don't know what happened last night but it's okay. I think we're all on the same page about protecting Mayo's. Damn guy makes me want to keep him safe. Okay that's weird but true.
Nothing weird about wanting to keep a friend safe, Elena.
I though tit was mothballed. Okay, thanks.
Guys, gimme a little while, okay?
newsflash from next door:
Alie's account was hacked into. She claims she didn't post that shit. How convenient. Especially so soon after making herself known at Mayo's.
Andrea is, of course, feigning innocence, while still inferring that she is an insider with her 'oh I don't know who Mayo is, but I know who he's not. I thought he was a friend of mine but it turns out I was wrong.' while making references to her friend GW, the 'fro' and calling undercoverbrotha Ray several times. Name drop much? She wants people to think she hangs with the band but is being discreet. What a joke!
Wonder what is going on over at the house. I can't pull it on this computer.
Hope our corner is okay.
Really I just hope Mayo is okay.
Last night was pretty draining.
I need some happy thoughts..anyone...anyone....
mothballed tit
Your tit is mothballed???
Okay, catch you later!
MissT,
Can I come live with you?
I could kick your noisy neighbor's ass for you.
Elena,
The corner is absolutely fine....it's like barricaded off...nobody can get in.
Anonymous,
But Andrea has always said the same ever since the beginning, she is not coming out with anything new. I don't understand why she is getting stick. Is it because of this Alie?
Alie and Undercoverbrother came on about a week ago and started something. Andrea came on after and apologised for their behaviour.
I'm confused.
Hi Sdock,
I saw your comment earlier. I'm glad our little corner is secure :)
What you got to eat, Sdock?
GS,
Yeah, the corner is going to be just fine.
Do you think Mayo would mind if we hung a punching bag from the porch? I feel the need to beat the fuck out of something.
Sdock, I would love it if you came to live with me. Maybe I should be asking if I can come and live with you.
Punching bags sound a spiffing idea.
I'll live that turmoil with you sdock.
sdock take a deep breath. Now here is my lightsaber. Go for it girl..It has the power of the Darkside.....Yeah
Hey I'm heading home. I'll catch up with you all later. Don't let anything bad happen. I love you guys. Even "Not So Evil"
MissT,
Better bring a shovel...it's pretty deep.
I don't hate you either, Elena.
Love you too, Elena, See ya later!
Something Shiny and New!
... and Kass' funny belly face!
Love ya, Elena!
Be careful...stop for all turtles.
I'm heading off.
Goodnight everyone. Take care.
TTFN
Shall I bring a digger sdock?
They are talking about food over there and making me hungry!
Miss T!
How did your day go?
G'nite, GS!
Yeah, MissT! Bring those diggers!
I'm in some pretty serious shit...I got lots of stuff to figure out.
MissT,
What kind of job are you trying to get?
Hi everyone
Hey, BC, didn't I just see you somewhere's else?
Hi Mya, Hi BC.
My day went OK, I have to go back to the agencies to sign on properly but I have some numbers.
Sdock, any bloody job.
Wow, the porch is booming with activity tonight.
Hello all!
*sdock goes back to hanging up bright pink Everlast punching bag*
Yikes, sdock! What happened? Everything OK at work, I hope?
OMG, I totally said "tit." Awesome.
Guys, if you're still interested, I can post this stuff over here in a few minutes, okay? I gotta take my dogs out.
Miss T,
What does that mean, that you "have some numbers"?
mya,
Puhhleaaaaaze, you know what kind of environment I work in...it's a tad bit stressful and full of women and bullshit.
*if I am being watched right now, I so realize how much I need my job and I value it dearly, but I also feel the need to vent and call the bullshit like I see it so please do not tuck my words away only to pull them out at a later date to make me eat shit and lie*
**thanks Mayo I had to borrow that line...it's one of my oh so favorites and it's like you were future telling when you wrote it...like how could you have know that it would so apply to my life like right now.
Manic anyone?
Fuck yes, I am.
Mya, I have some phone numbers.
sdock, i won't settle for just anything sweetie. But I will have to make do with something pretty soon.
So, is that what you meant by all the mess you were in or something?
Oh, OK, Miss T. I wasn't sure if you were dealing with an employment agency who would ring you up or what...
Hi Everyone!
Mya, I emailed you. Sorry it took so long.
Thank you, Anima!
Life is funny, right. You need a job like really bad and mine is killing me. It's so silly. The things we are forced into doing just by circumstances. And why do I feel powerless to change any of it?
It is time to sit down and do some serious fucking soul searching.
Seriously?
Fucking seriously.
days are flying off the calendar and time off my life and I am fucking settling. Nope, it is time to make a leap of faith.
errrrrrrrr....it makes me nauseous.
Well, I am kind of intrigued K, thanks!
Mustard, I am just catching up and read that you are leaving for a bit. I totally understand.
Just know how much we love you and we will be here for you come back. We will really miss you!! So don't be gone for too long, okay?
*HUGS you tightly*
sdock, whatever changes you decide to make, I shall be here to hold your hand sweetie.
Yes mya, I have to been to some agencies, fingers crossed. I still hope to find something by myself and am gonna ring some jobs i saw in the paper today.
mya,
My whole life is one big cluster fuck of a mess that I have decided to wallow in for the last 4 fucking years. My love life, my work life, my personal self....all of it is a big hot boiling mess.
Anybody want to stir it for me?
Throw some more shit in the pot?
Hey Anima!
Feel like making out? I
*puts on pink boxing gloves and starts pounding on the bag pretending it's the face of someone who shall remain nameless*
Goodnight GS. Have a safe trip home Elena. I will keep your corner with Sdock warm until you return.
Sdock, I am so sorry you had a shitty day. Oh, and I love that comment from Mayo. It's seriously the best ever.
MissT, I am so happy to hear that you have a couple of leads. That is a great start.
Crap, I had more....
Thank you Anima!
Well... That's a Horse of a Different Color, isn't it?
I wish I had known that earlier. It may have help to keep some emotions at bay, y'know?
Hello to all over here!
It has calmed at Mayo's considerably, and it sounds like it has here too.
Mustard,
It's ok, sweetie. We know about taking a break sometimes, but we still miss you.
Miss T, SDock, Hope you guys are doing better. Please take care of yourselves. Love to you both.
L.
Are you still sick Sdock? ;) If not then absolutely I'll make out with you, but MissT has to show me her ass first. It gets me, well 'ya know, kind of hot.
In all seriousness Sdock, I really want you to be happy. YOU deserve it. What are you waiting for? What are you scared of if you leave this guy? (I'm starting with the man thing because sometimes the career factor can take much longer to figure out.)
How was that anonymous? It was me!
Ok, so like where the hell did Mustard go? Seriously, where the hell did Mustard go?
Ok, listen people. I don't know what the hell went down today but all I'm gonna say is I don't have a clue who Alie or Tiff is and don't care about all that bullshit. Don't care who knows or think they know Gerard. I don't. Point blank. So if you do, good for you. Talk some sense into him.
As for everyone here and what happened today, chill the fuck out. We've been here too long and been through too much to let some little petty shit destroy what we have. We have dominant personalities, we have quiet personalities, we have people that have been here from the beginning, some that haven't. In the end, no one person is better than an another. Who gives a fuck? I don't. I think this place is very special. That's all that matters.
As far as the 'other' place goes, as far as I knew everyone knew about it, including Mayo. So again, I don't give a fuck. I don't say anything anywhere that I wouldn't say straight to Mayo's face.
I don't know who he is. Don't care. As Elena said earlier, he has become a friend of ours. That's all that matters.
Now, if I'm wrong about any of this shit or if someone thinks I'm full of shit, let me know now and I'll fucking disappear.
Yeah, right. I'm not that easy to get rid of. ^_~
Hello all
Shall I go next door and delete stuff whatever I can?
Woohoo,
*whips knickers off for anon*
Go on, you can slap it if you want.
Mya, I'm glad it helped. No worries, we have all been there. Sometimes our emotions get the best of us. Remember the MWM thing. I totally freaked out. My biggest emotion was knowing who to trust. It really sucked. Not that you freaked out or anything, well... you know what I mean. ;)
All of us regulars have good intentions. It is really awesome to trust people over the Internet. In fact it is absolutely amazing.
Hi L, hi Martha, hi S&V.
How are you all?
And that my friends is my fucking sister! MINE! The Princess Smoke&Venom20!
Bravo!
You may take your bows now and we will throw roses at your feet.
Thank you, thank you!
Anima,
I'm sick in the head...does that count?
And yeah I could start with the dude thing but then I would have to stay at my job or I could leave the job and be stuck with the dude...oh my GAWWWWWWWWHD, I am in a fucking hole. Oh shit...all my posts are coming true. I am an fortune teller.
Mayo,
Be prepared. Tonight is going to be crazy comment night from sdock. Provided I can get someone to pass the note for me. Though something tells me....that you would find it if I left it on the porch.
*punch, punch, punch, left, left, left, right, jab*
I'm alright Miss t aand how are you?
MissT, the anon was me!!
Oh and I like. Oops, I just slapped it. ;)
Princess, agree 100%.
I'm really not someone who is just waiting for that great reveal so you can stand back and say "See, I was so smart. I knew."
I do have a very, very hard time believing in Santa Claus, but I'm not hoping to find out he doesn't exist so I can ridicule and laugh at others.
I need to know for myself, y'know?
Maybe the anon today was right - we should all talk more.
Hi Martha!
How are you?
Welcome back to the porch...wanna punch with me?
PPU,
You could at least come and hold the bag for me, right?
If you don't care to read this, don't. I'm posting it for the people who want to know. Yes, even for those who outright frigging pestered some of us about it, while we were trying to get to bed, go to work, take care of real life stuff etc.
Okay, for anyone who cares, here's how it went from my POV and a few others who saw this start to go down.
About a week ago, some random person called "Alie" came blundering onto my LJ, chose a post where I was pretty upset over something going on in my life (justified this by saying she'd chosen one she thought no one would pay much attention to) and pulled the "zOMGzz I know Gerard Way, is Mayo really him?!!" thing that pretty much everyone knows I don't like. Well you know me, I don't stand, sit or squat for that kind of bulljive, and dumbass spelling and grammar gets on my last nerve as well, so I said as much. I told her to GTFO with her crappy, rediculous spelling. (Search this blog and some anons for that unique spelling.)
Around the same time, a bunch of us from this blog got a random email from some chick we didn't know asking the same question. Umm, hello, decorum?
Alie took exception to this and a few of her friends were going to "come find me." A few of them came over here and tried to start trouble. Andrea, however, said, "Hey, whoa, I like those people. There's no need for that." Which was cool.
Well, needless to say, the bunch of us felt that these emails and messages were not only undecorous and weird, but slightly stalkery, too. We didn't feel like we could post about it at DM because we have our share of mean-spirited anons and lurkers over there who so hate to see the bunch of is getting on. We mentioned it in a different place that everyone knew about except--we thought--the vultures.
While Alie's friend was over here starting trouble, s/he mentioned that Alie was a reporter for TMZ. Most of us thought, "Uh huh, sure. A writer who can't write well." But on the other hand, it was possible--and were we willing to risk getting inundated at BlogBelieve 'cause someone had a big mouth and a chip on their shoulder? This is often called an open community. It's not. It is someone's blog. Everyone is welcome; Mayo would not turn anyone away. But that does not mean that we want or will accept people asking us dumb questions through email, crashing the blog to slate us, or posting about us over at places like BuzzNet where they latch onto anything that might even resemble perhaps a discarded sock that might have once belonged to Gerard Way. And the last thing we want is anything that gets said here to end up in TMZ. Because even if we don't know whose blog it is, we know whose it isn't, and we don't need false info splashed everywhere and people coming here for the wrong reason. Most of all, we say a lot of personal stuff here and at DM. A lot of stuff about our lives and the people in them. The last thing we all need is people who have an agenda coming over and getting all up in our Kool Aid. There's "being exclusive" and then there's "not being an idiot and a doormat." These are two different things. Sorry to break it to you, but you don't have to like everybody.
So when it came to light that Alie might have been lurking at our other blog too, I mothballed it. This was last night. I also cautioned everyone to keep your business to yourself, because someone here was really, really interested in us and she and her friends were not above posting stuff about our personal lives, too.
Unfortunately, we couldn't say or do too much because Alie is a friend of Andrea here, and like Andrea, so we figured we'd just let it go. We went to look at Andrea's blog and saw some references to something akin to a kind of MRC "roleplay" or something like that through blogs. A few months ago there was some anonymous person on here saying that all of these blogs were a bunch of MCR fans doing some kind of roleplaying game and we started to wonder if this whole thing was, well, exactly that. It looked pretty likely, especially when considering that Andrea's AIM name is similar, if not the same, as the one of someone claiming to be "Tim", supposedly the new fiance of "Kat", which is Gerard Way's (apparently hard done by) ex. (Which I never bought. Sorry.) (Is the Gerard Way stuff ever going to frigging end?)
We've also got a friend here who we like a lot and we've always found pretty sincere, SS. A few of us were talking one night about he ended up on this scene. He used to keep a personal blog too, one that somehow got leaked. A sure sign, we thought, or someone's sincerity in their desire for privacy (or lack thereof,) is whether or not they leaked it themselves. If you leaked your own blog, you obviously wanted it to be found; you did not want your words to remain private. Often if an anonymous source leaks their blog, that anonymous source is the blog owner. (Hi, Mayo.)
But it wasn't an anonymous who mysteriously googled and found our friend's private blog. It was Andrea.
Is that an accusation? No, just an observation, but you must imagine how odd it seemed after all of this had started to go down.
Last night a bunch of us figured that these observations came down to one of two options: Mayo and all of us were about to get played, hard, or, Mayo was playing us hard. Because all of a sudden, the "roleplay" thing started to make a whole hell of a lot of sense.
That was last night, and I honestly wasn't really feeling the "roleplay" option. What I was feeling--and I think that most of us who had seen these things was feeling-- was that, because all of a sudden Alie was on the scene, some crap was about to go down. So I urged everyone to STFU about themselves, about Mayo, about their private lives. And we all urged Mayo to, I don't know, let us know something if he knew.
Right after I went to bed, this post came along. Heartbreaking, right? Sounds like the end of something special?
Huge surprise, there is Alie posting on BuzzNet about Gerard breaking up with Lyn Z. Links to here getting posted all over the place. Tons of anons and mean people on the other blog. What does any of this have to do with Gerard and Lyn Z? Nothing. That post? A pretend "scorned ex" trying--and succeeding--to start some drama.
I do find it odd how it coincided with this entry though.
Now the question on the table is this: Did Alie just take this random blog and run with it? Or was it set up to look like these two things happened at the same time?
Here's the only thing that matters to me: That Mayo is A) not in with these people and this stupid game or B) that if he is not, he is not going to be dragged into it, which seems to be the idea if that's the case.
Like I say, I only know who Mayo isn't. He is not Gerard Way. I've liked him. I've enjoyed these blogs. The only thing that would change that--at least for me--would be if he was in with these nut-jobs. These nut-jobs who have followed us around the internet, sent us emails, crashed our LJ's, crashed this blog, posted stupid stuff on BuzzNet, slated us here and there, and generally been a nuisance. (Andrea, I'm not saying you've personally done this. But you have to admit, what happened to us all last week, and especially today was stupid and mean and should not have happened.)
If that is not the case, then all I want is for these people to leave us the hell alone, take your Buzznet, your stupid Gerard rumors (NO ONE CARES!) your pretend "I know what this is all about / I'm in with the band" games, and GTFO. Leave us, and Mayo, alone.
As far as some of the anons today, even the nice "let's pull it together" ones, let me put it to you this way: All anons are anonymous today. Our friend doesn't tend to post when there is drama, and when there is not drama and he does post, he finds a way of letting us know. However, other people might be invested in finding out what's up so much that they pretend to be someone we know. I hate that. I have always hated that. That really, really burns me, to jerk people around like that, even if it is supposedly "for the greater good."
In short: I care about you, Mayo. I seriously think we all do. I don't want you to be hurt. I also don't want BlogBelieve to get overrun with people from goddamn TMZ, BuzzNet, or people who think you're Gerard Way. I don't want the people I really like here to be run off because of stuff like this. I've loved it here and, for as long as you keep it going, I will continue to love it here.
Unless you are a part of this.
What I really feel badly about is that if you have nothing whatsoever to do with this, then you obviously have something going on right now, and you don't need this crap.
But neither do we. You know?
Miss T, what jobs looked the most promising today?
Well spoken, Princess! Thank you.
Miss T., how goes it?
Love,
L.
Thanks K!
Hi L, I'm good. how are you?
Mya, I have seen a job as a dental nurse, a pharmacy assistant and I have a number to ring for classroom assistant jobs.
Hi OP's, Anima, MissT, MJ, DG, Mya and K!
And anyone else I missed!
Doing good, Miss T. Sounds like you are going on quite a few interviews. I wish you luck!
I always looked at the other employees when I went on job interviews. If they looked happy, I felt better about it.
I actually turned around and left before one interview because every employee I passed looked like they were on death row.
Love,
L.
Dang! My co-worker kept interrupting while I was trying to read K's post! Which was really good and very appreciated, as a matter of fact!
Miss T, which one of those jobs could you see yourself doing?
Hello, Princess. How are you doing?
Love,
L.
I'll keep that in mind L.
mya, i'd love to be a classroom assistant again.
I forgot to hello BC.
Hi sweetie, your name got drowned out among the other comments.
That's the one I thought sounded good too, Miss T! I'll keep my fingers crossed for you!
Gotta leave for now, but I'll try to return later.
I asked earlier, but didn't get any answers back:
Should I go next door and delete what I am able to delete? Should we all? I mean comments that are too... revealing?
That's okay Miss T. I had to step away for a few minutes because my brother wasn't watching the boiling water we were using to cook the spaghetti, and yeah, you can imagine my house was full of smoke. He's a slacker I must say ^_^
That aside, how are you?
I'm OK thanks BC. It took me ages of reading today before i could join in on the blogs after all that went down. i didn't know what to say.
Sdock, are you still there sweetie?
Mya, thank you. goodnight.
Going to go for now, guys. I need to talk to my Mum for a bit, and then I think I will have an early night.
A little, tea, a little reading. It's all good.
Take care of each other. Please.
Love you,
L.
Miss T, ain't that the truth? It was nuts today.
Elena, if you are on her later...
We love you. Don't forget that.
L. and J.
Remember our Kick Ball games. Oh, the Nutbusters! That was hella fun. Where is Sis Midnite? Mustard we need you back!
Goodnight L.
Madness BC. I wasn't around last night and couldn't believe what i had waked back into.
Oh, shit! ^_~
"On HERE later."
Elena, thought I should fix that before I left.
Love ya,
L.
MissT,
I'm still here. Thanks for remembering me. I am lost in my own head. Again.
Anima,
I miss the kickball games too. I miss Sister Midnite. She always has the knack for telling us when we are letting things get waaaaaaay to seriously out of hand.
BTW, did my ass feel good? I've been working out.*
*not really
hey you guys.
i just wanted to hop over here and let you know that i'm here, shut out of mayo's (dammit), but i think i'm just going to hang over there and read along.
just didn't want anyone to think i was m.i.a....
i don't know that anyone needed any of this information...
er...
*slinks off*
Hey TJ,
I've been pounding on the new pink punching bag. Now, I am about to hit the showers.
Wanna punch?
*sdock is calming down and feeling the effects of the xani bar*
It's going to be a real chill night.
Hi TJ *wink wink*
sdock, I could never forget you.
I think you've already left but I'm fine, L. Just still kind of pissed off. Not just from this place but other stuff as well. How are you guys?
We need to here from our little riddler don't we? It would make me feel better, I know that much.
I miss Sister Midnite, too. She'd always make me laugh.
Well, I'm going to watch Celebrity Apprentice. I'm not sure why but I feel like laughing at some crazy people that have way more than I do. Mr. Trump to be more specific. ^_^
See you guys later.
You know what? It is still all about the love. For me, anyway.
XOXO,
Princess S&V20
P.S. - Mustard, I miss you already. Now I have nobody to help me PROTOCT the others. X_X
What has been going on?
I just caught up with things and all I can say is wow!
Kapunua, thank you for taking the time to post that, and clearing up some confusion.
*sneaks back in*
*taps at the punching bag*
*winks at miss t*
*pauses*
*winks at miss t again*
*slinks off*
Absolute madness indeed Miss T.
Hi there squeak squeak
See you later S&V.
Hi, guys. KD, I have missed you. :D
Kass, I know you are not around, but I laugh every time I refresh the page. Your ava is too funny.
Sdock, I forgot to mention. Focus on the relationship issue first and foremost. Please take a look at how you can get out of it. Talk it through with us if you need to. The job is a part of life. It pays the bills. You can deal with that later. But your home life does not sound good. Have you started looking at getting an apartment? Maybe get a 6 month lease and tell him you need some time away. You are not stuck. You can change this.
anima,
I don't even think I make enough money to move out and live on my own. And I can't go back and live with my mother....I mean I could, but I can't.
What's up at Mayoz?
Nothing Sdock
Anons bitching as usual, and Kool aid pitcher has bust a wall.
Oh Good Lawwwwwwhd!
It's no fucking wonder Mayo can't hear anything...buzz, buzz, buzz. Hell, I can't even hear anything myself.
Mayo,
I'm here hanging and it's quiet here. You're more than welcome to come sit in the swing with me. We could just sit and not even have to say anything. Just listen to the night.
Or we could pound the hell out of that punching bag...
...just offering.
Sdock, have you even looked into it? Some apartments are pretty cheap. You just need to really look and ask around. If not then, I would get a second job waiting tables a couple nights a week. Anything is possible.
LHM has a bunk bed!
O_o
I'm sleepy.
Xanax works well at making you not give a fuck! Trouble is it makes me even meaner than I already am.
Grrrrrr.
For the record, Omarosa is a beeeeyoootttchh!
Ok, be back in a bit....
Sdock, I wish I had a suggestion to actually help you, but god, all I can say is that you need to get out of this. There has to be a way?
Leaping empty handed into the void. I know. I feel for you.
sdock,let's run away together.
Please post to Mayo for me:
Mayo,
My friend, how are you doing this twisted, mind fuck of a Thursday? I hope you are doing so much better than I think you might be doing. So see even if I think you are doing well, I still am hoping you are doing better than that. I'm hopeful like that. Me? I am not even sure it's worth discussing. Feels like I keep tasting the same regurgitated shit in my mouth day after day after day. You'd think that after doing it long enough that I would either get used to the taste or just fucking stop. So far, neither has happened yet.
Is it just me or is it awfully fucking loud in here? I mean I'm on the porch and I can still here all the yelling and screaming. I can imagine there is a ton of finger pointing and blaming going on. I'm actually kind of glad that I don't have to sit in the middle of it and watch. Don't get me wrong...I miss the corner. I miss it terribly, but the porch is nice. It's quiet out here. I was thinking that maybe when you get here you might want to just sit with me for awhile. We could just sit in the swing and enjoy the silence together. Nothing but the sounds of the night. We'd look at each other and know that we both are carrying the burden of heavy thoughts and heavy hearts, but we wouldn't feel the need to spill or spew. We'd just enjoy the comfort of knowing that each of us knows exactly how the other feels, and that would be enough. That would be all that we would need. And we would watch the night slip away into morning....hoping that with the sunrise...new hope would spring forth. And we'd get up and be on our way to try this thing called life one more fucking time. Grateful for the chance and for the new day.
Mayo, I wish you inner peace and quiet tonight. Close your eyes and swing on the porch with me.
Love to You Always,
S
p.s. I forgot how pretty the stars were.
MissT,
Where would we run to?
Would we be running to some place or from some place?
*sdock is about to look into online ordering of some blue footballs*
I miss Nikki and her football jokes.
Nikki, where are youuuuuuuuu?
We could run anywhere you like sdock.
Sdock,
I just posted your comment at Mayo's
Thank you, thank you, thank you, KD
Where do you want to go MissT?
I've never been anywhere so I don't know where a good place would be.
I just feel really ...I can't find the words...not sad...just blah.
We'll go somewhere hot sdock. Crete is lovely, we'll start there.
MissT,
That sounds absolutely perfect.
Now, how much money do we need?
Oh yeah and I don't have a passport....hmmm.
HEY YALL
Everything cool?
Well it's my b-day tomorrow so ya'll better be nice!
C-YA!!!
I hope you get loads of nice pressie LHM. Have a great day.
Sdock, you have to get a passpot sweetie.
Happy Birthday LHM!
Sdock, do you want any help? I mean, we offer but it gets overlooked. [just as I admited at Mayo's, I've already had a whiskey or two... I apologize if I sound a little looney.]
I (we) really want to help. Will you let us?
Well, I get someone calling me out again at Mayo's.
Fuck it...
Why do people feel the need to do that? Why??
Why does it matter what I write? WHY?
P.S. LHM, my birthday is in about 26 days. I'm excited too.
Awww, Sdock don't let it bother you.
I learn a lot about myself from everyone, even the anons - good and bad. Take the value and let the rest roll off your shoulder.
Someone could be just looking out for you.
*HUGS*
Sdock,
Try to ignore that post. They are just assuming things and have no understanding of where you are writing from (your heart).
I enjoy reading what you say to Mayo. You make a lot of sense a lot of the time.
sdock, just ignore them.
Yeah, I know what they are trying to say...the overbearing part is what got me.
I don't ask anyone to read what I write to him.
Just skip if you get tired of my dramatic, wallowing, overbearing, self pitying self.
But today of all days after the shittiest of days, it just hurts and it sucks.
PERIOD!
Truth hurts.
Slices like a hot knife through butter.
Anon,
You are right. But you knew that already, didn't you?
Fuck yes, you did.
It's not the truth sdock. It is the opinion of one anon person who you don;t know.
Does their opinion even matter to you.? It doesn't matter to me.
Maybe they are right.
It could be overbearing I suppose.
sdock, don;t even give what they said another thought.
sdock my Internet is being a bitch and I can't get into Mayo's but Honey you know I would go use my lightsaber on anyone who messes with you. You know that right?
Elena,
Yep, I sure do. Thank you.
MissT,
I'm just very touchy tonight and that fucking hit me in the gut.
SD10 I can't get on Mayo's to read what is being said about you. But why let someone who doesn't know you get to you.
We are friends here a family and we want to hear what is going on with you and we want to help. It is our choice and we chose to listen to you because we like you.
Sdock:
Don't listen to an effin word that dimwit said, okay?
I went to your house.
*Is still Protocting*
And in comes SS!
To save the day I hope.
Martha and Mustard,
Thank you for your words.
Mustard, I knew you wouldn't leave me.
SS is here! SS is here!
*smiles*
Wish someone would tell SS that we are waving to him from Mayo's porch.
*waves frantically to SS**
*claps along with sdock*
ss is here!!!!!!!!!!!!
MissT,
Tell him! Tell him!
Tell him that he has a bunch of friends who can't get in to talk to him but we miss him and we are waving to him and we thank him for stopping by to visit.
I will do sdock.
K beat me to it.
Oh I wish I knew what was happening. What is SS saying?
sdock you're waving so hard you're gonna fall off the porch girl.
He knows we're here...
At least I hope he does..
MissT,
I knew it was SS who left that comment for you! I fucking knew it!
Elena,
Can you load just the comments? That's what I am doing.
Heres the thing, I have been trying to read the comments but I still don't understand what has happened to cause such chaos.
Would it help if I tipped my hat to you?
Temple (aka MissT) said...
Hello anon, it's nice to have you back.
Can I ask if you were the one who left me those lovely arabic words when I was feeling down?
Anonymous said...
Busted! Probably because my Arabic was so bad.
Anonymous said...
Hey Entropy! Tell Mustard she'll always be astute in my eyes.
Fimble, thank you, I appreciate that.
Kapunua, I was reading the long comment from earlier and while still confused by most of it, I'd like to respond.
Anonymous said...
Anon, I would love to know what bands you like. I myself have always and forever will love The Smiths. They have defined who I am as a person in some ways.
Sad but true.
Anonymous said...
FS, I know and like Oasis, but The Smiths were the band of my formative teenage years. Tells you how old I am.
I'm sorry I confused you. I am the Smiths anon. Not SS. Sorry again.
*hands TJ boxing gloves*
Hi other anon, how are you?
Anonymous said...
It seems that recent events in Blogbelieve have caused not only my identity but my integrity to be called into question.
I am aware that most of you are genuinely unconcerned with my identity and have adopted a laissez faire approach, as it is irrelevant to our Blogbelieve friendship, but I cannot remain silent while my intentions and motives are under suspicion.
Does it sting? Yeah, sure it does.
Do I understand how frustrating it must be for you guys? Of course.
I want to make something perfectly clear, in case there was any doubt.
I am in no way associated with any of the people you were discussing earlier.
I do not personally know anyone in Blogbelieve (well, perhaps I do, I'm kind of ambivalent about that actually.)
My blog was supposed to be private, I have absolutely no idea how it was discovered, to this day it still remains a mystery to me.
Smiths anon,
Cool!
Smiths Anon,
Were you the one calling me overbearing?
I got to make one comment before the door shut on me again...
This suck so hard...
I can't even read the comments
SDock, I would never have a bad thing to say to you.
SmithsAnon,
Thank you. I just wanted to know. It's not like it was that bad. It just kind of stung a little bit. The wallowing and overbearing part and all...
*hands TJ boxing gloves*
thank you, sdock.
*takes gloves and beats on lazy-ass old man computer first for needing to be restarted right then!!!*
D:
Anonymous said...
Thank you for allowing me to respond and set the record straight.
Goodnight Fimble Star, Mya, Paperheart, Katherine, Kapunua, Miss Tottenham, Entropy, John Boy.
Stay safe guys.
This is terrible. Now it takes forever to get on the porch. I'm like out in the yard getting eaten up by bugs. I'm just gonna go over there by that big tree and fall asleep. Promise this is the last bit of whining you'll hear from me tonight. Hope I can read the comments tomorrow. Night guys..
Elena,
Hey, at least come crawl in my sleeping bag and tent.
We can huddle together.
G'nite to you!
Well I think I am off now too.
Good Nite, Good Nite
Sleep tight, Sleep tight
So nice, So nice
I said it twice, said it twice.
Love to ALL!!!!!!!!!
Love to Mayo!!!!!
Love to SS!!
~This is terrible. Now it takes forever to get on the porch.~
It's all your pictures. Those + the Blogger icons slow it down. You can't do anything about the Blogger icons, but you can do something about the userpics.
Go to Settings and disable commenters userpics.
Goodnight sdock.
You have the right idea, it is 5:44am here so I'm off to bed too.
Goodnight Elean, i shall see you tomorrow.
hello porch people!
Hope you are all well today
*returns to beat on sdock's punching bag again*
gah! it's takes so long just to refresh mayo's page!
*smacks bag around*
woo! hey, hi there ergo!
*oops*
(i haven't written your email, yet)
Hey guys! =]
Hi
Hey Martha=]
Hi martha and Ph Tj Sdock sorry I ahve an aim discussion with a friend and 2 blogs and dinner to get ready!!
hey guys. sorry i wandered off.
for some reason, i'm feeling kind of low all of a sudden, so i think i'm going to leave early tonight.
would it be okay if i wrote my good night comment to mayo here, and have one of you post it for me at his place?
Hi squeak squeak, ergo, paperheart, everyone else
HEY EP, TJ, and BC!
TJ, I will repost it for you my bumble bee!
oh that's a shame TJ
I can post it or someone will
have a good sleep when you head off
thanks, paperheartxx. i'll write it now.
and i'll say good night to you all now, too. sweet dreams.
thanks ergo -- i'll get to your email tomorrow, probably. sorry about the wait.
sweet dreams squeak squeak. Hi there paperheart. I'm surprised you're still up :)
Sweet dreams Toujours, sleep well! ^_^
BC, no school and no work till 3 tomorrow! =]
Tj, I am off to bed. I'm sorry I didn't get to post your comment. I'm just REALLY tired.
Sweet dreams to you hun, love you lots little bumble bee!
xoxo;
- 007
<3
mayo,
were you the anon who said "goddammit! you are stronger than this" last night?
even if you weren't, it's a comment i haven't been able to get out of my head. i've re-read your poem and your postscript. i've tried to hear what you're saying in the spaces between the words. and i feel ashamed.
mayo, you came to us last night with something real from your life, and i was so caught up in the drama we invented that i wasn't really there for you. i feel like i failed you, and i'm sorry.
your entry last night was about endings, whether one from the past or a current one i don't know, but it's clearly one that lives in your heart still.
there's a prayer i sometimes say on the threshold of the new year, and one part of it goes like this: "what is meant for me to leave behind, i leave behind. what is meant for me to carry forward, i carry."
mayo, maybe this ending was something that was meant to be. maybe it isn't something you need anymore.
and that isn't comforting if you are heartsore, i realize. i'm sorry. i can't comfort you. i'm just words on your screen. you can't see my face, can't read the sympathy in my expression.
all i can do is reaffirm my purpose here. i still myself, i quiet the chatter, and i listen for your voice.
always.
good night, mayo. sleep well, dream well, and wake refreshed.
(i'm well aware that i've made plenty of assumptions in this comment, but i gave my heart rein. please laugh and shake your head if i've said anything too over the top, yes?)
it's okay, paperheartxx. i always take a long time to write my bedtime comments.
thanks to whoever re-posts my typically bloated comment over at mayo's. i really appreciate it.
good night everybody. sweet dreams.
*Throws more roses at princess's feet*
Sdock,
Ignore them.
Ignore them.
Ignore them.
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