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Watch em burn
Teach em what they need to learn
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Home of the Porchies, the Sluts, those afflicted with Smaw Poese, the lonely bitter Hags, the Homie Ho's, the ubiquitous and somewhat cantankerous Unicorn, and anyone else who feels like an outcast from time to time.
Weaver Girl said:
At our backs the castle door,
others feel free to ignore
this extension of extended metaphor
On the porch swings where we sit,
quick of tongue and fleet of wit
games and poems to submit
Open books in open hands,
poetry from other lands,
lyrics from our favorite bands
A telling word, a single note,
and meaning in a random quote:
significance of what we wrote
Different cultures and aesthetic,
for this we're not apologetic!
We are just beyond poetic!
Killers, X Files, Broken Bride
never are these words denied,
here they often all collide
from the early light of dawn,
as we used to, still wait on
the random poetry anons
Jack White, movies, TBS,
have you wisdom to profess?
Here, the answer's always "Yes"
Here we play, by words transfixed,
Haiku and pop culture mixed,
nothing broken, nothing fixed
Here is truth and here's creation
joy and horror, pain, elation,
in a story, small salvation
And here is laughter, here we're free
to be whatever we may be
and though others may disagree,
we greet the castle, greet its lord
and do so of our own accord
and shun the frothing, rabid horde
Be it known I'd so much rather
read my friends and all their "blather,"
on the porch here, where we gather.
others feel free to ignore
this extension of extended metaphor
On the porch swings where we sit,
quick of tongue and fleet of wit
games and poems to submit
Open books in open hands,
poetry from other lands,
lyrics from our favorite bands
A telling word, a single note,
and meaning in a random quote:
significance of what we wrote
Different cultures and aesthetic,
for this we're not apologetic!
We are just beyond poetic!
Killers, X Files, Broken Bride
never are these words denied,
here they often all collide
from the early light of dawn,
as we used to, still wait on
the random poetry anons
Jack White, movies, TBS,
have you wisdom to profess?
Here, the answer's always "Yes"
Here we play, by words transfixed,
Haiku and pop culture mixed,
nothing broken, nothing fixed
Here is truth and here's creation
joy and horror, pain, elation,
in a story, small salvation
And here is laughter, here we're free
to be whatever we may be
and though others may disagree,
we greet the castle, greet its lord
and do so of our own accord
and shun the frothing, rabid horde
Be it known I'd so much rather
read my friends and all their "blather,"
on the porch here, where we gather.
Go With The Flow
This River Is Wild
Leaves are falling down
On the beautiful ground
I heard a story from the man in red
He said the leaves are falling down
Such a beautiful sound so I think you
Son, I think you better go ahead
But you always hold your head up high
Cause it's a long, long, long way down
This town was meant for passing through
But it ain't nothing new
Now go and show them
That the world stayed round
But it's a long, long, long way down
You better run for the hills before they burn
Listen to the sound of the world
And watch it turn
I just want to show you what I know
And catch you when the current lets you go
Or should I just get along with myself
I never did get along with everybody else
I've been trying hard to do what's right
But you know I could stay here all night
And watch the clouds fall from the sky
This river is wild
This river is wild
The Killers
Leaves are falling down
On the beautiful ground
I heard a story from the man in red
He said the leaves are falling down
Such a beautiful sound so I think you
Son, I think you better go ahead
But you always hold your head up high
Cause it's a long, long, long way down
This town was meant for passing through
But it ain't nothing new
Now go and show them
That the world stayed round
But it's a long, long, long way down
You better run for the hills before they burn
Listen to the sound of the world
And watch it turn
I just want to show you what I know
And catch you when the current lets you go
Or should I just get along with myself
I never did get along with everybody else
I've been trying hard to do what's right
But you know I could stay here all night
And watch the clouds fall from the sky
This river is wild
This river is wild
The Killers
The Switch & The Spur
any poor souls
who trespass against us
Whether it be beast or man
Will suffer the bite
or be stung dead on sight
By those who inhabit this land
For theirs is the power
And this is their kingdom
as sure as the sun does burn
So enter this path
but heed these four words...
......you shall never return.
The Raconteurs
who trespass against us
Whether it be beast or man
Will suffer the bite
or be stung dead on sight
By those who inhabit this land
For theirs is the power
And this is their kingdom
as sure as the sun does burn
So enter this path
but heed these four words...
......you shall never return.
The Raconteurs
104 comments:
omg first?
right ok i am off now to watch me footy so i will be back later for you to congratulate me on my recent success of making first place. yay whoopty do
bye bye
Pass to Mayo for me:
Mayo,
How are you today? Things running along pretty smoothly so far? I hope it's at just the right speed. Me? I'm good. Just ate my oatmeal which feels like mortar mix in my belly and I'm sitting here trying to type in stealth mode. These fucking keys are loud as hell in a quiet house. Err....
Mayo, I hope you find time in your day to think of someone. It might be someone you miss, someone you love, someone you had a fight with, someone you are best friends with, someone you need to talk to or someone who needs you to listen. Let them find their way back into your heart and mind.
I'll bet you that they have spent some time thinking of you as well.
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. or all of the above.
Wait until Monday FS, that's all I'm going to say.
The pro's will be back in town.
Morning socky. Posted for you.
exactly PP!!!!!!
Good Morning everyone :)
Ergo:
My greatest condolences. I'm so sorry. You know, but I'll tell you again, if you need to talk about anything, you can always email us. They are in my thoughts.
Anima:
I don't even know what to say. I'm so disappointed and disgusted in people who feel they have to do the things they did to you. I'm just so sorry it had to happen. But, what matters is you are a beautiful person with a beautiful SOUL. And that's just simply great.
Kapunua:
I now know to never get on the road with you! ;) Kidding!
And as far as your looks go, we've had this discussion before and my mind hasn't changed. I just hope that one day you will begin to see what others see.
To the Dream Anon:
Holy shit. I can't imagine having that dream. I can guess that you were freaked out? And why 52 secrets?
Are there that many of us he's hiding from his wife? ;) Kidding, again!
Anon that addressed Mayo:
That's a very good perspective. I like that.
Thank you to whoever posted my comment :)
ARHGHGHGHGHGHTGHGHGHGHGFHGHGHG
IM OFF TO SPEND A NIGHT WITH JARED LETO ARGHGHGHGHGHGHGHG IM OFFICIALLY EXCITED :) WISH ME LUCK
Too long, it's been too long.
I can't stay, I just wanted to let you all know I miss you so much I could cry!
My life is being a bit ridiculous at present, but as soon as I regain some normality I'll be back, please feel free to email me, I'd love to know how you're all doing, don't make me beg!
Take care of yourselves and eachother!
xoxo cupcake
Cupcake! It's good to see you!
Hey peeps! I feel too lazy to do anything today. ^_^
I'll see you all later on.
Love ya!
XOXO,
S&V20
SIM,
We expect a detailed concert review when you return!
Good luck!
Hey ALL!
Hope you all are having a spectabulous day!
IM OFF TO SPEND A NIGHT WITH JARED LETO
0_0
How does one sign up for something like this?
oooh SIM have fun!!!
hello porch dwellers!!
hopefully mayo will post at a similar time and you can come on into the castle!!
SIM, I can't wait to hear all about it when you get back! Hey, your'e off to spend the night with the entire band. Take note of hos Shannon Leto completely owns music. You will be blown away, watching him long enough. He's amazing.
Can't wait for your review!
hahaha i know Kap i know i just thought it sounded good saying i was sharing a night with Jared Haha got more of a response. My lifts late :( im so excited i cant type properly and i need to pee every 5 minutes hahaha i really am hyperventilating a little too woooooooooo
If i manage to get into the signing im gonna ask whats with lack of 1st album tracks see what they say hehe. That is the plan but i will probably just be a puddle on the floor, hopefully not though. Hope im not sick on them i vomit when im really nervous hahaha oh dear :/
hahaha it would be like "hi Mr Leto great sh.... bleurghhhhhhhhh....ohmygod im so sorry...
Mr Leto screams "Security!!!!"
I leave with look of shame and vomit down myself hahahaha
im gonna back away from the computer now and pace outside my house till the car comes bye everyone have fun i will :)
Have fun, SIM!!!
Mayo just posted, guys. ^_^ Around ten minutes ago I suspect.
Present:
I don't know if you're around or not, but hello :)
Porchers:
It's so quiet out here. You can even hear the birds chirping.
Hello guys! I don't know if it's so dead around blogtown because it's Sunday or what, but it's kind of creepy in a way!
<3
Anyone here?
Helloooooooo?
Someone please come out and play with me!
*Runs*
*Runs FASTER!*
*tackles!*
SDOCK!!!
What are you doing?!
Um, so how about Mayo's post took me back to all kinds of shitty sadness?
Sdock!
I wanna play!
*spits out grass*
Mustard,
I have been missing you like all fucking day!
Yeah, Mayo's post.....I just am at a loss.
What ya wanna play?
Deep thoughts?
Shoot!
*bear hug for missing me*
*another for me missing you*
:)
Ok let's play!
What are we playing?
Can I just say that I miss MissT? I miss her so much I was speaking all Britishy like in Wal mart!
Oh, you rule.
You turned Britney for a second. ;)
I hope she returns soon. I miss her, too.
I thought we were playing Deep Thoughts?
Okay...you gonna come up with something are you should we play deep thoughts with the post today?
Hey all! I wanna play, too!
We're not playing that creepy game that Anon brought up, though.
That was just....creepy.
Uh, let's go deep thoughts on the post.
Maybe the Princess will come and play!
Sdock turned Brit-Brit at Wal-Mart and I 'honked' all through the store.
^_^
That Anon weirded me out.
*pictures that scene*
That's awefully...funny.
LOL!
Okay let's go deep with the post.
Who wants to start?
Gimme, like 5 minutes to form my thoughts.
"go deep"
I'm sorry that was just funny. ^_^
I'm so friggin' confused by it.
I'm quite pissed off about it, but I'm not exactly sure why.
I'm trying to figure that out.
Mostly, it hit me right in the heart because I feel like I know exactly where he's coming from.
Well, it's kind of like anything you think you might understand you read the next part and you're like wait...whut? huh?
Exactly.
It's the last paragraph before the P.S. that shook me to my core.
I'm not being melodramatic, just honest.
It really hit me.
Mustard,
Me too, but there's also parts that I don't entirely understand.
Like who did he give his soul to? God? the devil? his love? his career? us?
the p.s. the last part about imperfection?? what?
is he saying his fall from the top will reveal his imperfections?
Why would anyone think he is perfect though?
and the whole anchored to rock bottom is puzzling as hell.
Sdock, it seems as if that particular paragraph was written to us.
You know how you need something to get you started writing? Well, that may have kicked off his thought process and it just grew into more.
I don't think the rest is about any of us at all.
For now I am anchored to the rocky bottom. I will drift, but I will not be carried out to sea.
You ever get down, Sdock? Shit sucks. No one can pull you out?
Rock bottom?
He'll sway back and forth from okay to no okay, but he'll never go past that.
It's like he's stuck.
No, me neither but who has his soul? Who is he talking to? God?
Regardless, at the end of the day, I know its worth.
Again, what?
Soooo confoooozed. O_O
What pisses me off is he posts it, knowing what we'll think and then.....
Nothing.
WTF is up with that?
If it doesn't mean what we all assume it to mean, he's an ass for posting it that way.
GRRRRRR!!!
Mustard,
That's the way I read it too. Like he's always in the same place but very aware...almost too aware. Why rock bottom? Does he really not think he deserves better than rock bottom? Or does this go back to sobriety?
I am expended. I have given my soul to you and, without question, you deserve it. I am rewarded by my investment and I know I get more out of it than you. Regardless, at the end of the day, I know its worth.
I think he's talking to us. He's told us a lot of things. He has shown us part of his soul. Why we deserve it, I'm not sure. Maybe there's something there between him and all of us. He's rewarded because of the feedback from us he's received. And he says he gets more from this than we do, but I'm not entirely sure about that. But, when he lays down at night, his time here, our time here, it's meaningful.
I am reminded that not so long ago I was so afraid of death that I taunted it, begged it to take me on. For a little while, I allowed its insidious grip to hold my soul. I was seduced by chance and by choice.
I didn't care if I died or not.
Temptation will always tug at my better judgment. I have been successful at averting my attention from ruinous behaviors toward the seemingly benign. Still, I question whether I have just shifted gears rather than changed lanes.
That last sentence worries me, too. He's gotta figure that out. He needs to know where he stands with himself.
Perhaps I will again fall prey to deaths seductive whisper and allow myself to be captured by the romance of self destruction. It is wise to consider that I tempt fate. The alternative is blind supposition.
I've done it once. Why will another time hurt?
For now I am anchored to the rocky bottom. I will drift, but I will not be carried out to sea.
I already said what I thought about this.
p.s. it takes hours to come down and the fall may lead to my imperfection.
Someone's holding him up to rose colored glass.
Mustard,
Wow...I like all of what you said.
Yep, I think you just said what everyone was thinking.
Me anyways.
Well, what do you guys think about the post?
Exactly what you just said, really.
The only thing that bothers me is how he can write something and there's always fifteen billion ways to interpret it. You know?
Cuz if he ain't talking about doing you know what, then what is he talking about?
He just makes me want to scream. >_<
Mustard,
Give me a few mins. It's fucking hot as hell in my house. I am sweating like crazy.
It's very frustrating.
I just wish Mayo would pull it together, whatever's going on.
You just want to see him okay, and he sometimes doesn't sound okay.
Sdock!
Dirty. ;)
Blah!
Protein shake? They gross me out.
It looks like you're drinking cement.
That's exactly what it tasted like.
Or like.....
Crushed up chalk and bananas.
YUCK!
Mustard,
What is frustrating to me is that he sounds just as fucking abnormal as I am....now, that makes me feel useless because if I can't help me and fix me, then how the hell can I help him? And that's exactly what this post did for me...it sounded just like me.
Oh my GAWHD, it was like drinking dust....
*wonders if that is what pixie dust tastes like*
Hey, at least now I know, right?
Not to buy that shit again!
Well, it sounded just like me a few years back, but I won't lie, I still revert back to that time.
I still feel those things.
But, yeah. It was exactly like reading something I would say, just a lot more wordier.
And Sdock.
Even though you feel you have nothing to add, you do.
I always find it most helpful when there's someone out there who "gets" me.
Mayo may just need to "get" someone right now. We don't know.
Hell, he may need more than that, but that's not for us to decide, you know?
We can only do so much.
Well, I can't say that I really relate to it all that much but I know what it's like to watch somebody taunt death and try their best to self-destruct.
There ain't nothing romantic about it.
Definitely not, Smoke.
Mayo's view of that is perceptually off. Who knows what he's thinking.
I think that's what frustrates me the most about him. He's no different than the guy sitting across my living room from me.
I can scream all I want and neither one of them hears me.
Ah, but Smoke. You can't give up trying.
In both instances.
You just can't.
Yeah, I know. It just gets frustrating. It's like damn, can I just slap you and get it over with? Will that help?
Hell no.
I don't know. I just wish Mayo wouldn't post stuff like that and then not say anything. It just sucks.
Yeah, it keeps us all worried.
But, to be fair, he may have just not wanted any questions asked of him. Maybe he wasn't up to it.
Still just a "Hello everyone, how are you?" would have been so much more calming than nothing.
I hope he's okay.
Maybe it's not so much taunting death but wanting to feel more alive.
Maybe, Sdock.
Wanting to feel.
To come so close to death, that you finally get it...you finally realize what living and life is all about.
Does anyone understand what I am trying so terribly to say?
Sdock, don't go throwing curve balls now.
Damn you, stop it!
Just a the other book end.
Yeah.
I know what you're saying.
Yeah, but if you have come so close to death before that now you want to live life to the fullest...
Wouldn't you try to do stuff right from then on? Do things that will matter and not cause you to self-destruct?
Am I wrong? Or is that just in the movies?
You find things that make you feel alive for an instant...for a little while it almost works. You think you've almost got it. You're happy...life is easy. Too easy...this can't be all there is. There has to be more. Should you take the chance and throw it all away and start over? Maybe you'll get it right this time.
And that's just the thing...it almost works....almost.
Wow, I got out of the tub completely running off at the mouth.
No, that's just it. You do it for the feeling. You think that feeling is what being alive is all about. So you do it again and again, hoping it will last, hoping that you finally understand, but you never do.
*I am speaking for my totally fucked in the head self here. I know that someone who is normal would never think this way.
No!
I just don't know what to say.
I don't know how to help.
How to help who?
Mayo?
Yes, Sollywolly. The white jackets will be knocking on your door any minute now.
Don't worry though. We will all be there to keep you company. ^_~
Good night BlogBelieve!
Sweet dreams errbody!
XOXO,
S&V20
Nite, Princess!
Both of you, Sdock.
Everybody.
I want to help, but I don't know how.
Goodnight, Smoke!
See you tomorrow!
Mustard,
We will help each other. Okay?
I at least know that I am fucked in the head and I look at things from a completely fucked up perspective.
Let's talk about something else.
What do you wanna talk about?
Damnit! I didn't even write a new blog today. WTF?
errrr, I must do that this week.
I need something brand new to talk about and dwell on.
I have no idea, Sdock.
I really don't.
Something you wanna talk about?
Mustard,
Do me a favor and tell the anon that I want to help too and that I'm listening to what they are saying, but I just can't get to Mayo's. Errr...it's frustrating.
Will do, Sdock :)
Mustard,
Awwwwwwwwh, did I totally kill the mood on the porch? I didn't mean to. I swear. I am just a little off in the head. I thought you knew that about me already. You have read my work, right?
I wish we could all be back in Mayo's like we used to. That would help so much. We could talk to each other all the time. We could share and help each other.
You didn't kill the mood!
I know exactly what you're talking about. Sometimes it is a bit difficult for me to wrap my head around your feelings, but I always understand them.
And yes, being back at Mayo's would be like being back home.
I wish we could all get there.
You don't think what I wrote to Mayo was a little too crazy, do you?
I wish I could help Anon, though I don't know how. I feel fucking ugly myself. I just understand that so much.
No, I think it was perfect.
Not crazy at all.
I know. It's so weird how sometimes you connect with someone because of something they've said, like the Anon and Mayo, and you've been there, too.
And you'd think you'd be able to help them because of your experience, but you can't.
Yeah, but I guess the most important thing is just to be there and offer yourself to them.
That's what I tell myself anyway.
Weird.
I do that, too.
I feel like I keep giving and giving, and then I'll give some more.
And, damn it, I get tired. Like, you can only give so much stuff. Sometimes I need it back, but it never comes.
Mustard,
Exactly...you must make sure you say that to Mayo. I think he does that too. That's why I made the point about keeping a little bit of your soul for yourself.
I am guilty too. And I know I have great people around me, great people here, but sometimes I can't see that they are willing to give back to me...or, I think I don't deserve their help.
How fucked up is that?
Right.
And I'm a very good listener. And I've just assumed that role. I listen to people and I try to help them. But, because I've done that for so long, just listening, I guess that's what people come to expect.
And part of it is probably my fault, too. Because I don't really talk a lot, but it's because I listen so much.
Is that weird?
No, it's not weird at all.
But who am I to say that?
I hope you trust me when I say that...what if we are the normal people?
What if we are the ones who have it figured out and the rest do not?
Yeah...
What if...
Well, we can't be abnormal if we both feel some of the same things, right?!
Fuck yeah, that's right.
We can at least take comfort in not being alone, right?
Mustard, I love you. You are such an amazing, special, feeling person. I am lucky to have found you.
Thank you for being my rope buddy.
And never doubt that I am here for you if you need me.
And with that, I am off for the night.
Catch ya tomorrow!
Sdock,
Thank you.
Now you take the words you just said, hold them up to a mirror, and that will be me saying them back to you.
Goodnight, Sdock. Sleep well and I'll see you around tomorrow :)
I'm going to jump in.
I do not think you are fucked in the head Sdock, you actually can express the duality and confusion that lies underneath conflicting emotions. That is your strength. Lots of people feels these emotions at some point in their lives. Some cannot ever have them leave.
It is when you cannot articulate them, try to escape them or just have no feeling at all, like a type of numbness, that you are in trouble.
Sdock and Splash, YES, you are both "abnormal." I wouldn't be into either of you if you weren't. ^_^
But you are both insightful, introspective, thoughtful and empathetic people. REAL empathy, not just lip service.
That makes a HUGE difference.
To those around the porch, I hope you all have a great Monday tomorrow!
Sweet dreams<3
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