Friday, January 25, 2008

Lurking

How's that for cryptic?

86 comments:

Anonymous said...

Sdock?

Anonymous said...

What are you doing?


Are you okay?

Smoke said...

Who's lurking?

Who's cryptic?

What?

sdock10 said...

Hey Mustard,

Hey Smoke,

I'm okay. I didn't mean anything by the post. I was just trying to let you guys know I was here, there, and nowhere, and everywhere.

Magnificent Failure.

sdock10 said...

Princess Smoke,

You said the eff word. It just looks wrong when you type it.

I'm sorry.

I just don't have lots to say tonight with all that's gone on with the anons and the BS and SS.

elena said...

Hello my friends

I probably shouldn't be here tonight. I have moved from fear about what happened today right into fucking pissed off.
I'm pissed about what happened to my children and I'm pissed about what happened to SS.

You know I'm usually pretty mellow but damn it I'm ready to fucking take someone out.

Smoke said...

Why?

I can't say the eff word?

O_o

Well eff it then.

I just saw Tony on tv and his hair is funny. ^_^

Now, I'm still pissed off about what is gone on today and I can't even get into Mayo's to comment.

EFF!!!!

Smoke said...

Elena,

Let's do it. Let's just beat the shit out of someone.

I may just beat the shit out my husband.

Now there's a thought. >_<

Anonymous said...

Sdock, I'm so glad you're okay at least. That had me worried.



Don't feel bad with not knowing what to say. We're all a bit worked up, on edge, pissed the fuck off, sad, mad, angry, disappointed, hurt, need I go on.

Lots of emotions tonight. And they're all running high.



Question for everyone:

If you are here later on tonight, would you mind posting Sdock's goodnight letter to Mayo (if she has one) and mine? I'm unable to do it for her or myself tonight.

Thank you :)

sdock10 said...

Elena,

I'm glad your girls are safe.

I'm just really at a loss again. Don't know what to do with myself. Do I rant about it or just sit back and shut up?

sdock10 said...

Awwh, Mustard, you're so sweet.

Why can't you get on Mayo?

Anonymous said...

Not now.


I had saved some comment boxes from earlier.

I can't sign in because I lose the comment box.

That's why I'm not signed in.

And, I have a lot of shit in my head that I feel like needs to be said, and I'm sure you have things you want to say, too. :)

Smoke said...

Rant.

Always.

Rant.

At least I do.

I've ranted all damn day.

I tried to tell SS I was gonna get fired if he didn't come back. I was for real dizzy and light-headed for a minute and I told him I was going to pass out and hit my head on my desk and then my boss would find me with Blogger pulled up on my computer and I'd get fired.

And that was the longest damn sentence ever.

He didn't come back though.

O_O

Would have been bad if it really happened.

sdock10 said...

I almost got fired the last time I came out of hiding and defended SS.

Treacherous times, my friend.

But so worth it.

Anonymous said...

It is worth it, and dammit, we will get him the fuck back here some how.

Smoke said...

Hey,

You guys go check out my blog and tell me if that sounds okay. I'm gonna leave it up until he comes back.

If it sounds okay, will somebody post a comment to him at Mayo's to let him know?

Let me knw what ya'll think.

Smoke said...

What kind of word is "knw"?

Duh.

sdock10 said...

Princess,

I think it's perfect.

Smoke said...

Uhhh, hello?

sdock10 said...

Princess,

I said it was perfect.

I wish I could post it for you.

Smoke said...

Oh, I know. Thank you SollyWolly.

I just thought I was alone.

Don't be getting all snippy with me. I can still come drag your ass around the yard.

Where's the dude?

sdock10 said...

No, I am not snippy with you. I am a little miffed that we can't get on and do it ourselves and some of our family tends to forget that and we could sure use their help.


But if there is one thing I do know, it's that SS knows where your heart is.

sdock10 said...

He is here and looking at me.

sdock10 said...

Making a run to Hungry Howie's. I will brb.

Maybe someone will eventually have mercy on you and post your comment for you.

Mustard would if she could.

Anonymous said...

right first of all what do you want me to post

and once i have posted it for you then i will deal wit you all

Anonymous said...

Yeah!

With a rope! Like I threatened to do with you ;)


I read it Smoke. Sounds perfect.

Smoke said...

It's cool Fimble, GS posted a message for me at Mayo's.

Mustard! Where you been?

I just didn't want it to sound too whiney-hiney but I don't know what else to say, ya know?

Smoke said...

Mustard?

You're like a ghost.

Poof you're there.

Poof you're gone.

Where the hell is Kapunua?

Anonymous said...

well i was sat on the other blog for like an hour. you could of told me instead i was left along and i thought i scared you away sheesh. do i smell hahahaha

hello

Smoke said...

You do smell but you didn't scare me. ^_~

Just playin'!!!

Anonymous said...

I'm here!


I'm everywhere. O_O


Everyone okay?

Smoke said...

Yep. I guess.

SOLLYWOLLY is miffed. She hasn't felt good all day today. Then she has her dude staring her down.

You okay, Mustard?

sdock10 said...

FYI

Hot wings are not Hungry Howie's specialty.

Pizza was pretty good though.

Smoke said...

I ♥ Tim Riggins.

Just thought I'd let you know that.

sdock10 said...

Fuck, I must be the one who smells.

Garlic...check.

hot sauce...check check

Pepperoni...check, check, check.

Smoke said...

You stank.

sally said...

Can I hang out at the porch?

I sure as hell prefer it here to Mayo's.

How are you solly, smoke and mustard?

Smoke, I just read your blog entry.
That was very special. I have a feeling that it was removed so others could not use it as ammunition.

I really thinks he respects all of you.

sdock10 said...

I ♥ the quarterback dude...what's his name?

Matt Sarasomethin

Anonymous said...

I'm okay, yes.


You all don't smell.



Well, you smell like.....................................................................................................
Roses :)

Smoke said...

Hey KD!

Thank you.

I just hated to see him upset. That bugs the shit out of me.

sdock10 said...

Hey KD!

how are you?


I'm full of.....





pizza.

I know what you alll were thinking!

Smoke said...

Awwww, Mustard! You sooo sweet!

Sollywolly, he is cute, too.

I just like the bad boy, Tim Riggins.

Taylor Kitsch is haaaaawwwttt!

Is that how you spell his name?

Something like that.

sally said...

Hey smoke :D

He seems such a level-headed dude. I don't think he would be peeved with anyone here.

If he was upset, it probably would be because someone came in and distorted his gestures and words.

I think it's his way of protecting people here.

Smoke said...

Okay, I'll be back in a bit.

Anonymous said...

I really thinks he respects all of you.


Ah, but don't seperate yourself from this comment, KD.

I think he respects all of us.


Maybe lil' buddy was having a bad day and shit got to him? Maybe he knew of no other way to handle it for the time being until he could get some words down and give an explanation.

He knows us. He'll be back.

I have faith in him.

sally said...

Never solly!

mmm, sounds like it was yummy. Haven't had pizza for a while!

Smoke said...

I know KD. It still bugs me. I go into ass kicking mode when somebody effs with somebody I like and respect.

Same goes for anyone here. I'd kick ass for ya'll, too.

*Princess likes to kick ass and take names later. ^_~

Alright, be back in a bit.

sdock10 said...

Please pass to Mayo:

Mayo,

How are you this evening? I hope you are happy and well. Me? I'm just blah. Haven't really felt good all day. Now, as I am writing this note to you, I feel eyes piercing a hole in the back of my head. Yes, I am being timed and watched.

Sorry to make this so fucking short tonight, but sometimes real life is what it is. And tonight it is a big hot boiling mess and I am just trying not to stir the pot. Feel me? I know you do.

Mayo, I hope you are never in a position where you feel you can't do exactly you need to do or be yourself. May they never use your love for them against you....to guilt you or manipulate you.

Love to YOU Always,
S

p.s. In 2 places at once.

sally said...

Thanks Mustard!

Oh, I know I am included, I never feel left out ^_^

But it's only natural that some are more familiar than others, just like real life. That doesn't mean you are excluded.

I'm certain he will be back too, he's a wonderful dude!

sdock10 said...

SS couldn't stay away from us....we're the crazy blog ladies.

I don't doubt him for a second.

Anonymous said...

Of course not.

He couldn't possibly stay away from this if he tried.

He has a vested interest in us, as we do him.

WE produce the giggles. WE are the cause of the crazy looks.

WE are cool ass meffers.

Dude has to be back. Just needs a cool down period I guess.

And all the more power to him. I need one, too.

sally said...

You know what they say, keep the faith gals!

Mustard, I have this bad compulsion at the moment, I cannot get enough of listening to Nirvana's in Utero, especially Heart Shaped Box.

sally said...

Passed on to Mayo, sock my dear!

sdock10 said...

KD,

Can you post my comment to Mayo? Pretty please with cherries on top and chocolate sprinkles.

I'm not even going to try to leave a note for SS...not yet.

sdock10 said...

OH thank you! Thank you!

Here's your cherries and chocolate sprinkles my dear!!!

Anonymous said...

Ooooh, I listened to that today, KD.

Like twice.

That and I keep listening to Hang'em High.

My new favoritist line is this:

Hip Hip Hooray for me, you talked to me, but would you kill me in my sleep?

Cuz it makes me think of Mayo in a weird serial killer kind of way.

sally said...

*blows kiss to solly*

Anonymous said...

I cannot get enough of listening to Nirvana's in Utero, especially Heart Shaped Box.

Ah, yes.

I love it.

sally said...

Yeah, I tend to agree smoke!

"Rape me" makes reminds me of him, in some twisted sort of way.

OMG, I just got this vision of Christian Bale in American Psycho!

sdock10 said...

My fave Nirvana is still unplugged.

What did I listen to today?

Jack White

sally said...

Mustard, All apologies! wow!

What else should I be
All apologies
What else could I say
Everyone is gay
What else could I write
I don't have the right
What else should I be
All apologies
In the sun
In the sun I feel as one
In the sun
In the sun
Married
Buried

I wish I was like you
Easily amused
Find my nest of salt
Everything is my fault
I'll take all the blame
Aqua seafoam shame
Sunburn, freezeburn
Choking on the ashes of her enemy

All in all is all we are

Smoke said...

Ooooh, American Psycho.

Pumpkin, you're dating a tumbling, tumbling dickweed.



I LOVE IT!!!

sally said...
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sally said...

Sorry, spelling error!

I meant, isn't he so icy and hot at the same time?

yum.

Anonymous said...

Okay, I'm about to post this seriously long comment to Mayo and SS.

You can overlook it if you so choose :)

Smoke said...

I have always said that Mayo reminds me of Patrick Bateman.

Or....

John Malkovich.

Especially in Con Air. Why I have no idea. Just the way he talks. Lots of big old words that don't mean jack shit.

But it sounds good. ^_^

Anonymous said...

All in all is all we are

Sorry, couldn't help myself.

I love the repitition of this line.

What's it remind you of?

Anyone?

Anonymous said...

Mayo:

Mayo! Don’t think! What are the two words I say to you most often?!

That’s right, “Thank you.” And I’ll do it again tonight. I commend you on your patience because you’ve shown us a lot of it. You most certainly don’t have to put up with some of the things that go down here, but you do anyway. And sometimes I don’t know why, but them I’m like, “That’s Mayo for you.”
You’re an upstanding dude for putting up with all of our crazy shit here, the good and the bad.

Story:
I talked to that person. I’m not sure what came of it, but it happened. Still stuck between an “I don’t really care anymore” stage and “I’m here if you need me.” And it’s a sucky position to be in. I hope that was never the case between you and the ghost. Because it’s fucking weird. Constantly fighting your thoughts but never really getting anywhere?

Anyway. They were really hurting, and they told me about this hurt. I told them I understood how it felt and I got this questionable look as if to say, “I really don’t know what you’re referring to.”

And in my head, I’m like, “Yeah. You wouldn’t. Thank you for not being there.” But, I didn’t say that. I just told them I knew exactly what it felt like to feel that pain. I’m not sure if they understood. Shit hurts and it keeps hurting. The only thing I wish for them is for it to stop, because you don’t want to see it eat away at people.

Funny thing no one thought that. Oh well.

Moral of the story is that there is no moral. There never is. There’s just loose ends that never meet. There’s just frayed shit. It takes work from both sides to make it work.

So, be patient. And you have that in you because I’ve seen it here. And thank you for that.

I’m hoping things are working out better for you in your real life. We won’t know until the next time around. I guess we’ll see then.

I’m done droning. I wish I had more things to say to make it all okay, but I don’t. I’m just here. Maybe that will be good enough.


SS:

Dude. I have no fucking idea how to even begin this.

I posted this at DM. Since you probably have no idea what that is, I’ll just say it here, too.

He has a vested interest in us, as we do him. WE produce the giggles. WE are the cause of the crazy looks. WE are cool ass meffers. Dude has to be back. Just needs a cool down period I guess. And all the more power to him. He knows us. He'll be back. I have faith in him.

And I do, and I hope you will return. This is now not about you. This is not about Mayo. This is not about us. This is about us all.

We see all of the kind things you do, the kind things Mayo does. We see it every single bit. Some of us hang on bated breath waiting for both of you to appear from the deepest depths of this internet world. Some of us sit there, and we just get this feeling, an unexplainable feeling. We see that OUR friend has come to shoot the breeze just like the rest of us. We see that he’s come by to fend off the craziness and failing hopelessly ;). We see you joke around, and make crazy comments, and then you say your peace.

You always leave us with something to think about. “Be good to each other.”

Sometimes we fail. I fail. But, damn it. I try, and I can only keep trying.

You leave and we talk about it for three days or however long we want to. Point being, you stick with us. You’re never really gone.

But, now it feels that way. And I don’t want that. I’m not going to beg, because you are a grown-ass person, as am I. But, just know, your presence here cannot be replaced. Thank you for all that you’ve unselfishly given us, all of your time and energy. Never. It will never be replacable.

Now's my turn.

Have faith in us.

Smoke said...

Alright peeps,

I'm going to bed. I just hope that everything is better tomorrow for everybody.

Elena,

I'm glad your girls are safe!

Jules,

Why don't you call me anymore? ^_~

MUSTARD!!!!

Nothing. I just wanted to yell at you one last time before I left.

PPU,

You lurking little jackass. Oh, sorry...unicorn. I'll tie you back up come Monday. For some strange reason, unicorns seem to disappear on the weekends. You must be 'crazy bizzy' for a unicorn.


Mayo,

I know you'll never see this but hi and yes you do remind me of a serial killer. Sorry dude. O_O

SS,

DUDE! You totally abandoned me. I was knocked out on my desk for like two hours! Thank God I woke up before my boss came in! Jeez!

Just playin'.




Sweet dreams errrrbody!

X_X

XOXO,
S&V20

sally said...

Mustard,

You really are astute. That was just powerful!

And that line really sums him up.

Smoke those dude are just up my alley! Really smart, always thinking but quietly smoldering internally. I love men with complex duality!

And I love this verse;

She eyes me like a pisces when I am weak
I've been locked inside your Heart Shaped box for weeks
I've been drawn into your magnet tar pit trap
I wish I could eat your cancer when you turn black

Anonymous said...

Hi everyone


BC

sally said...

Night smoke and solly!

Sweet Christian Bale dreams!

Anonymous said...

I wish I could eat your cancer when you turn black

I want someone to say this to me ;)

No, seriously.

Kurt Cobain, poetic genius I think.


"All in all is all we are."

"All we are is bullets I mean this"

I see the similarity, you all may not, but I do :)



As an aside: The death of Heath brought back Kurt shit I did not need.

Those two little baby girls.

Pisses me off really.

sally said...

I do mustard, beautiful, feeling , descriptive lyrics with a powerful resonate.

And that is exactly why words should not be thrown hastily. They have meaning, good or bad, and can stick in the deep recess of your psyche indefinitely.

Anonymous said...

KD, so true.

That's absolutely truth.


Feeling

This question gets thrown about every single day with head honchos at record labels trying to save the industry.

"What's wrong?! Why can't we sell this artist to millions of people?!"


Simple answer, dude. They have no feeling.

sally said...

Mustard,

These record labels are a capitalist enterprise, like any other business. They are only interested in the bottom line.

I mean, if they think something sells, and it's new and fresh, they go for it.

Unfortunately, if you are new to the game, all the crap they feed you, mesmerizes you. Especially if you want it so bad. You have to watch that you don't end up selling your very soul.

Anonymous said...

Exactly.

It's a business now. Not an art.
And that makes me mad, too.

All these labels want to do is make a quick buck, and the kids are out there working their asses off to make something out of themselves, sharing their entire life story, and the majors won't even take a look at them.

Anonymous said...

Goodnight and sweet dreams solly!

Anonymous said...

Hey BC!

How are ya?

sally said...

It's so sad mustard. This is the new way of the world.

And those labels just see their "artists" as a "brand" or commodity.

Your function is to sell. I believe the artist then tries to address this with what they send out creatively to the world, hoping it has some meaning, and will make an impact. For this gives them their "identity". I suppose it also helps them mentally separate from the idea that they are a brand.

But most of the time, seriously creative, aspiring people just don't make it.

I guess it's a case of being at the right place, at the right time. And also the "right" publicity.

Just my view.

Anonymous said...

And I agree 100% with your view.

Anonymous said...

Hi Mustard! I'm doing good, just ate some pizza and lurking at some sites. How are you? Hi KD

sally said...

Hey BC!

New name :)

Anonymous said...

Hi there KD! Yep, new name. How are you? :)

sally said...

I'm well BC, thanks.

Sort of just caught up with things here today.

Really haven't been around here too much, my social life is taking over!

Anonymous said...

KD, sorry if it took a while to respond. I'm looking at some sites right now. Hi Mya

BC